I've been feeling a little off lately. Off, in this lethargic, listless sense, somewhat hapless and mildly disoriented. Sure, I've been catching up with friends for a bit, and those are great, but it's starting to be like an emotional roller coaster. The hours in-between, when the party's over, neither here nor there. Being uninspired and unmotivated to do things, except lounge around and read the news or lesser works of fiction (thou shalt not be named). Don't get me wrong, reading the news is part of my Daily Routine, but somehow, its become tedious. Stories prove to be unengaging, and I can't stomach anymore politics. I find myself only having the appetite for Rice and Refinery29.
I've been in a bit of a rut. Not being sure of my voice, who I am, the future, Being a bit of a mess, essentially. I've been told that "of course you're not going to have your shit together and know who you are at your age", but the importance of it is just so blindingly obvious. I'm "not going to", but I need to. This is on top of ongoing Existential Crisis 2k18, regarding social media and Positive Image. Projecting A Positive Image Is Everything. What Is Oversharing. Am I A Sell Out. At this point, I refuse to get into the age-old "you are not your social media persona" tirade, because you could totally google that for yourself. The sentiment remains, though.
This post was supposed to be out on 3rd June, 2018. Its 10.21 pm of 5th June, now, and I'm lying on the bed typing this out in a seeming bout of insomnia (once more), after having tried (and failed) in finding something noteworthy to watch, and done with listening to music for the night.
Anyhow, its been a month. A bloody long month since I last put anything up here. And as always, so much has happened since, including eBay panic, exams, a tasting at JAAN (!! will drop a note about that somewhere, in a dubious near future), and post-assessment bliss, which I'm taking as an excuse to treat myself. Non-stop,
Hi guys. I'm back. It's been two months. And even more since a new recipe. I have not been slacking off. At all. Which is why I'm so lethargic. Which is why I'm typing in truncated sentences. But I'll try to sound more coherent. Try, okay? (look! Here's a rise in pitch!)
Just a short summary of what I've been up to since January, in pictorial representation and short captions. Because I'm tired. And also because I may not be able to recall the full events that transpired.